Of all the recent professional upheavals I've survived recently, there is one which has posed a particular barrier to writing this blog: my departure from childbirth services. You heard that correctly--I'm no longer attending births. Doing so has been such a huge part of my professional identity, and my identity as the writer of this blog, that it has been really difficult for me to talk about the change without succumbing to despair. Today I feel ready to blurt out the truth, and I hope this will release some of the inhibition I've experienced in my writing.